At A Loss For Words

Today's ultrasound was the same as Saturday's - no baby.  

I really don't even know what to write, or how I'm feeling. Sad, angry, discouraged, scared, numb....

Having the support of our family and friends is making all the difference in the world, and I don't know what we'd do without them. 

I'm currently self-medicating with sushi, wine, chocolate, and stupid tv (aka American Idol) and hoping that tomorrow is a better day. 

Comments

[nic]

i'm so sorry... i had no idea... i just got caught up on your blog and i have to say, woman to woman, i'm really sorry and that i'm thinking of you, hon.

you *need* time to do selfish things and to grieve and mourn and be angry and all of that.

you seem to have such a great support at home, and i know that they'll allow you that peace and time...

(((huge hugs)))

[Jennifer]

I am so, so sorry. I had a miscarriage 2 years ago, at 8 weeks, so I have an idea of what you're going through. If you ever need to talk, let me know.

[Strugglepants]

I am so sorry Michelle. It is just a terrible thing to go through. The waiting and the helpless feeling are the worst. Focus on those adorable boys and have faith that everything happens for a reason.

[Wes]

Tomorrow will be a better day... Guaranteed... You hang in there. This is natural and happening for a reason we may not understand.

[Chad in the AZ Desert]

By prayers for you and your family. I hope for brighter days ahead for you.

[Lisa]

I am so sorry.