There are only so many ways to say "no baby yet," and I'm tired of coming up with new ones, so there you have it. No baby yet.
I'll be 41 weeks tomorrow, and I've been going back and forth all week - some days I feel fine, other days I feel sooooooooo ready for this to happen.
A while back, I wrote a post about how we discussed with our doula that labor can, in many ways, be compared to a marathon, and I can't help thinking of this whole event in that way, since what I've been feeling these past few weeks is very similar to how I feel before a big race. A little nervous, very excited, pre-race jitters, and then the need to just GET IT DONE already!
The only difference here is that 'race day' is not predetermined.
So, still we wait, and feel very much in limbo. I usually have a plan for our weekly meals, but that's gone out the window, since my appetite has been kind of off lately, and I also feel very unmotivated to plan anything, given that I could theoretically have this baby ANY MOMENT NOW, so what's the use in making plans?
And I'm kind of in hibernation mode already, not feeling like doing much of anything (a feeling which is only intensified by the bitterly cold weather we've been experiencing), which isn't too great for Dante, who's stuck home with his very lazy Mommy.
We did venture out Tuesday, though, and walked around the mall a bit, and window-shopped, and rode the carousel and got pizza and ice cream. So we are getting out and about a little.
We had to make a trip to my dentist today, too. I had originally had acupuncture scheduled for this morning, but had to cancel that, due to having an extremely sensitive tooth that I needed to get checked out today instead.
It turns out that it's not something that needs to be dealt with at the moment (and the sensitivity has quieted down, thankfully), but I really didn't want to end up in a situation where I was needing an emergency dental procedure days after giving birth - or, alternatively, end up in labor with a toothache.
So I figured it was better to get it checked out now and see what was going on. And I'm very relieved that it's not anything to worry about, and that I do not need major dental work while almost 41 weeks pregnant.
So I have my regular prenatal appointment scheduled for tomorrow morning, and I'm really hoping it's not necessary. There are still a lot of hours left in the day.....
If I do go to the appointment, though, and all goes well, I'm pretty certain they'll just tell me to come back in a week, and that's the point at which induction would become a very real possibility. Hopefully we don't make it that far, though.
Overall I'm really doing ok - this is just one of those days where I'm feeling ready and antsy and wanting things to start happening. And tomorrow might be just the opposite.
Or tomorrow I could give birth. Who knows?