I had a mid-training-cycle slump, and a pre-race funk, and now it's time for the post-race blues.
Motivation is lacking, my glute/hip area is aching, and the two times I've run this week, it hasn't been pretty. I just feel like I've somehow completely lost all my fitness - even an easy 5 miles this morning felt like an effort.
I have appointments with the orthopedist, chiropractor, and physical therapist, so that I can start getting this achy left leg thing straightened out, and I've also been spending some quality time with my foam roller, which has been helping. But the nagging discomfort, I'm sure, is contributing to my mood.
And I think I'm just in need of a break. I'm running the half next weekend - pacing my friend, and so excited about it - but after that, I'm definitely going to have a few weeks of very scaled-back mileage, and more swimming and biking, and try to forget all about future running goals for at least a little while.
They're out there, and I know I'll get back to them eventually, but right now, I'm beyond burned out.
There have been times during the past few weeks where I've actually thought I'd soon be looking forward to getting back to the track, and doing some intervals and tempo runs again.
But then today, as I was chugging along at an 8:35 pace, the thought of running 8 miles at a sub-8-minute pace seemed completely unfathomable, and the thought of running 26.2 miles seemed completely insane.
But I know I'm capable of it, and I know I will do it again. It's just going to take some time. Maybe a week or two, or maybe three or four - whatever it takes to make running fun and enjoyable again.